HE ABSOLUTELY DID!!!!!
Thank You Lord. . . . I am still in awe of your goodness you have shown me!
Tuesday, April 14, 2015
Monday April 13 ~ JESUS CALLING
April 13 ~ JESUS CALLING
When I give you no special guidance, stay where you are. Concentrate on doing your everyday tasks in awareness of My Presence with you. The Joy of My Presence will shine on you, as you do everything for Me. Thus you invite Me into every aspect of your life. Through collaborating with Me in all things, you allow My Life to merge with yours. This is the secret not only of joyful living but also of victorious living. I designed you to depend on Me moment by moment, recognizing that apart from Me you can do nothing.
Be thankful for quiet days, when nothing special seems to be happening. Instead of being bored by the lack of action, use times of routine to seek My Face. Although this is an invisible transaction, it speaks volumes in spiritual realms. Moreover, you are richly blessed when you walk trustingly with Me through the routines of your day.
Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men.
—Colossians 3:23
—Colossians 3:23
“I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.”
—John 15:5
—John 15:5
Look to the Lord and his strength; seek his face always.
—Psalm 105:4
This reading was perfect for me today! I've been feeling myself growing impatient in my
healing process... Not feeling myself ... And wearing out so quickly... Not feeling
motivated.... But I know in my mind this is a very important time for me to rest in God and
learn of His future plans for me. So forgive me Lord for not being still and allowing You to
work out my steps and the number of them I should be walking right now ! And thank You
for this word today Father! It really blessed me.
April 13, 2015 ~ CIRCUMSTANCES REVEAL WHAT WE ARE
April 13, 2015
Do you believe the reason why we’re the way we are is because someone or something has made us that way. If our circumstances were different—our upbringing, our environment, the people around us—we would be different. More patient, more loving, more content, easier to live with.
But if our circumstances make us what we are, then we are all victims. And that’s just what the Enemy wants us to believe. Because if we are victims, then we are not responsible; we can’t help the way we are. God says, however, that we are responsible, not for the failures of others but for our own responses and our own lives.
Truth is, our circumstances do not make us what we are; they merely reveal what we are.
They “squeeze” us, forcing what’s on the inside to come out.
The fact is, I was actually an impatient person before this surgery. I just didn’t realize how impatient I was, until God brought a set of circumstances into my life to show me what I am really like—so He could change me into someone who looks a whole lot more like Him!
We’ve been deceived into thinking we would be happier if we had a different set of circumstances. But we can trust our wise, loving, sovereign God to work out His plan for our lives by using those very circumstances to show us our need and to make us desperate for His grace.
What have you been blaming on the people, problems, and uncertainties around you? Ask God how He wants to use your circumstances to show you your heart and to bring you to a place of greater dependence on Him.
¸.✿´´¯`•.¸¸. ི♥ྀ.ƸӜƷ˜”*°•.•.¸ღ¸☆´ Shalom
Tuesday, April 7, 2015
April 7, 2015 ~ FILLING IN THE LAST 2 WEEKS
April 7, 2015 ~ Remembering the last 2 weeks
Well today was 2 weeks since the surgery and finding out the good news that the cancer was contained in the uterus...it had not broken through the wall of the uterus so when the uterus came out so did the cancer I had! For added precautions the surgeon removed 21 lymph nodes in the pelvic area and none of them had any cancer cells in them. So it was in deed good news. My only instructions were to see my Gyn doctor ever 4 months for blood work for the next 2 years...and then every 6 months for the following 3 years to make sure there are no recurrences.
A little surprised how I'm still feeling weak and wear out so quickly.... and though I'm getting up and down without Harold's help... I still feel everything heading South when I stand and it is still painful. Getting better everyday.... but I guess I thought I was going to feel really better than this by 2 weeks.... the few pics you may have seen of me at our Easter Sunday gathering with our family was about all the time I was able to spend outside with the family....for the most part I was feeling exhausted and weak and layed inside on my bed...only getting up to tell them all good bye at the end of the day. Glad they all came and I got to see them all.... but was so sorry I wasn't able to enjoy the day with them.
It's been very difficult to sit at my desk to write what was happening over the last 2 weeks because I couldn't sit upright for long periods of time.... but I'll try now to fill in some of the gaps.
March 24, 2015
It's surgery day! "This is the day the Lord has made . . . I will rejoice and be glad in it!" Psalm 118:24
I woke up feeling ready and fully prepared to get this surgery done today!
Rory and Dawn drove us into New Orleans for the surgery and Breck, Martha Ann and Maddy met us at the hospital. The morning was really different than what I'm use to under trying conditions.... I need silence so my mind can stay fixed on God and I gave Breck strict orders to tell Rory not to be goofing off and laughing in the room with me .... and for her also tell anyone who wanted to come and sit and wait for me to be taken to surgery, not to talk.... I wanted quiet.
It wasn't that way at all..... But it was good... we laughed and Rory goofed off saying he was gonna take pics of me and put on Face Book.... it was all very light hearted and well..... joyful..... I'm so sorry we didn't take a group pic....there were strong positive vibes in the prep room as the nurse one step at a time prepared me for surgery....and the last thing I remember. . .was hearing Breck say....Shhhhh.... she's falling to sleep. No fear...No anxiousness.... it all went off perfect and as the surgeon had planned.
I was taken to the back at 11:09. . . . and my family didn't hear from the doctor till almost 4:00 pm
The next thing I remembered was a young and unattentive nursing assistant rolling me out of recovery to my room.... I was like in a fog.... but I distinctly remember her rolling me over the elevator door runners that made me yell out in pain..... and when she got me to my room.... she was telling me to help her move myself over into my bed as she pulled the sheet I was lying on... it felt so violating to me that when my family came in ...all I could do was cry.... then Breck tried to explain to me that the doctor gave them good news and though I couldn't fully understand what she was telling me...I remember hearing the word "good" ...which made me cry uncontrollably. . . .
Yeah I don't remember a thing about the surgery (Praise God) but the Post - OP events that evening were a bit unexpected and overwhelming....but nothing could have prepared me for the first time they nurse got me up the next morning at 9:00 am after being discharged only 18 hours after surgery!
March 25, 2015 ~ 9:00 am
Harold didn't sleep at all through the night and kept his eyes glued on me....I woke up every hour, when they would come into to check my blood pressure or take blood. And Harold would still be in the same position sitting next to my bed. Thank You Lord for Him and His love that will surely play a great role in my healing. I was so glad Breck made the decision to drive back over to us that morning to help me get up for the first time and help freshen me up and put me into a gown and robe.
Before standing me up we had to go through the ordeal of removing the catheter. Oh my heavens.... I thought I would faint! A dose of Tylenol would have been a good idea before removing the catheter and sending me on an hour and half ride home! With the nurse on one side of me and Breck on the other, I attempted to stand up. . . . I couldn't believe what it felt like.... like everything from my chest fell down to my bottom.... and I couldn't put one foot in front of the other.... my ears were ringing and I felt so weak....I started to cry and told the nurse ....they should never send anyone home in this condition. . . . Sympathetically she agreed. But it's the insurance companies that make them send people home with tubes in them and really not ready to care for themselves. Thank God I have a husband who gave 120 % in making sure my every need was being met in these last 2 weeks . . . .
He has taken such great care of me .... Never getting too far away ...and always keeping his eyes on my every move.... he's done the laundry, cooked our meals... helped me in and out of the shower...in and out of bed....He's been wonderful, loving and attentive!!!
UPDATE From Rena
Home now .....the ride from the hospital in New Orleans was horrendous and had me in tears by the time we reached home ...... But after some sleep ..... I wanted to give you faithful praying partners the preliminary findings from the path lab about the Cancer I had ! It was Stage one and Grade one and it had not gotten through the wall of the uterus.... So it was contained with in the uterus! Very good news! The Best it could have been. Now we just have to find out if the lymph nodes are clear ....if they are clear of any cancer cells, then the journey will end here .... if they're not, then I will need further treatment. . . . but all in all it was a very good report concerning the surgery! Please continue to pray for me it's a very painful surgery to recover from and I'm very weak !!!!
March 25, 2015 ~ Note to the Praying Partner's:
Thank you all who were praying for me .... I know yawl were wondering why yawl were not getting updates during the surgery. . . but my family had not gotten any word from the doctor or even an assistant the whole 3 & 1/2 hours I was in surgery ... They took me back at 11:09 and the Doctor didn't talk with them until 4:00......I know yawl must have been concerned.... My family was getting besides themselves as they saw other doctors come out to talk with other family members that had loved ones having surgery. And then they had to wait 2 more hours before they could get to see me. Sorry yawl weren't able to be kept informed along the day.... But thank you for your continued praying!
Well today was 2 weeks since the surgery and finding out the good news that the cancer was contained in the uterus...it had not broken through the wall of the uterus so when the uterus came out so did the cancer I had! For added precautions the surgeon removed 21 lymph nodes in the pelvic area and none of them had any cancer cells in them. So it was in deed good news. My only instructions were to see my Gyn doctor ever 4 months for blood work for the next 2 years...and then every 6 months for the following 3 years to make sure there are no recurrences.
A little surprised how I'm still feeling weak and wear out so quickly.... and though I'm getting up and down without Harold's help... I still feel everything heading South when I stand and it is still painful. Getting better everyday.... but I guess I thought I was going to feel really better than this by 2 weeks.... the few pics you may have seen of me at our Easter Sunday gathering with our family was about all the time I was able to spend outside with the family....for the most part I was feeling exhausted and weak and layed inside on my bed...only getting up to tell them all good bye at the end of the day. Glad they all came and I got to see them all.... but was so sorry I wasn't able to enjoy the day with them.
It's been very difficult to sit at my desk to write what was happening over the last 2 weeks because I couldn't sit upright for long periods of time.... but I'll try now to fill in some of the gaps.
March 24, 2015
We just got to the hospital and waiting to go to the back to be prep for surgery.
Feeling a little sleepy. . . Had to get up for 5:00 am to get to the hospital for 7:00 am
Shouldn't have any problem being knocked out!
It's surgery day! "This is the day the Lord has made . . . I will rejoice and be glad in it!" Psalm 118:24
I woke up feeling ready and fully prepared to get this surgery done today!
Rory and Dawn drove us into New Orleans for the surgery and Breck, Martha Ann and Maddy met us at the hospital. The morning was really different than what I'm use to under trying conditions.... I need silence so my mind can stay fixed on God and I gave Breck strict orders to tell Rory not to be goofing off and laughing in the room with me .... and for her also tell anyone who wanted to come and sit and wait for me to be taken to surgery, not to talk.... I wanted quiet.
It wasn't that way at all..... But it was good... we laughed and Rory goofed off saying he was gonna take pics of me and put on Face Book.... it was all very light hearted and well..... joyful..... I'm so sorry we didn't take a group pic....there were strong positive vibes in the prep room as the nurse one step at a time prepared me for surgery....and the last thing I remember. . .was hearing Breck say....Shhhhh.... she's falling to sleep. No fear...No anxiousness.... it all went off perfect and as the surgeon had planned.
I was taken to the back at 11:09. . . . and my family didn't hear from the doctor till almost 4:00 pm
The next thing I remembered was a young and unattentive nursing assistant rolling me out of recovery to my room.... I was like in a fog.... but I distinctly remember her rolling me over the elevator door runners that made me yell out in pain..... and when she got me to my room.... she was telling me to help her move myself over into my bed as she pulled the sheet I was lying on... it felt so violating to me that when my family came in ...all I could do was cry.... then Breck tried to explain to me that the doctor gave them good news and though I couldn't fully understand what she was telling me...I remember hearing the word "good" ...which made me cry uncontrollably. . . .
Yeah I don't remember a thing about the surgery (Praise God) but the Post - OP events that evening were a bit unexpected and overwhelming....but nothing could have prepared me for the first time they nurse got me up the next morning at 9:00 am after being discharged only 18 hours after surgery!
March 25, 2015 ~ 9:00 am
Harold didn't sleep at all through the night and kept his eyes glued on me....I woke up every hour, when they would come into to check my blood pressure or take blood. And Harold would still be in the same position sitting next to my bed. Thank You Lord for Him and His love that will surely play a great role in my healing. I was so glad Breck made the decision to drive back over to us that morning to help me get up for the first time and help freshen me up and put me into a gown and robe.
Before standing me up we had to go through the ordeal of removing the catheter. Oh my heavens.... I thought I would faint! A dose of Tylenol would have been a good idea before removing the catheter and sending me on an hour and half ride home! With the nurse on one side of me and Breck on the other, I attempted to stand up. . . . I couldn't believe what it felt like.... like everything from my chest fell down to my bottom.... and I couldn't put one foot in front of the other.... my ears were ringing and I felt so weak....I started to cry and told the nurse ....they should never send anyone home in this condition. . . . Sympathetically she agreed. But it's the insurance companies that make them send people home with tubes in them and really not ready to care for themselves. Thank God I have a husband who gave 120 % in making sure my every need was being met in these last 2 weeks . . . .
He has taken such great care of me .... Never getting too far away ...and always keeping his eyes on my every move.... he's done the laundry, cooked our meals... helped me in and out of the shower...in and out of bed....He's been wonderful, loving and attentive!!!
UPDATE From Rena
Home now .....the ride from the hospital in New Orleans was horrendous and had me in tears by the time we reached home ...... But after some sleep ..... I wanted to give you faithful praying partners the preliminary findings from the path lab about the Cancer I had ! It was Stage one and Grade one and it had not gotten through the wall of the uterus.... So it was contained with in the uterus! Very good news! The Best it could have been. Now we just have to find out if the lymph nodes are clear ....if they are clear of any cancer cells, then the journey will end here .... if they're not, then I will need further treatment. . . . but all in all it was a very good report concerning the surgery! Please continue to pray for me it's a very painful surgery to recover from and I'm very weak !!!!
March 25, 2015 ~ Note to the Praying Partner's:
Thank you all who were praying for me .... I know yawl were wondering why yawl were not getting updates during the surgery. . . but my family had not gotten any word from the doctor or even an assistant the whole 3 & 1/2 hours I was in surgery ... They took me back at 11:09 and the Doctor didn't talk with them until 4:00......I know yawl must have been concerned.... My family was getting besides themselves as they saw other doctors come out to talk with other family members that had loved ones having surgery. And then they had to wait 2 more hours before they could get to see me. Sorry yawl weren't able to be kept informed along the day.... But thank you for your continued praying!
Monday, March 23, 2015
Monday ~ March 23 ~ GOD'S DELAYS ARE NOT GOD'S DENIALS
Monday ~ March 23
Well my bag is packed and we're in the countdown stage now. . . . today is the day that I meditate on all the things God has put in my heart over the last 2 months.... as I prepare for surgery day tomorrow.
The Believer's prayers have truly been my source of calm through it all.... when many times I could have been afraid or anxious.... Prayer held me up. I have actually "felt" the prayer covering over me. It comforted me... protected me... it help to guide me... and it lead Nurses and Doctor's and Tech's to show favor over me....it's been amazing.
I have wondered a few times why God has allowed the amount of time that has passed before actually getting to the surgery. It's been 2 months since learning, through the Biopsy. that I have Uterine cancer. And though we haven't stopped at all at the process of getting to this point...it just seems people I've known that find out they have cancer ...right away the surgery is done.... I don't know why now... but I sense in my Spirit that there is a reason for the 2 months. I know for sure my faith has been encouraged...and my trust level in God has been raised to a place I've never seen Him before.... there is still something important I don't fully understand about it all. But I believe I will.
I know God uses His delays to teach us to trust Him more fully and to submit more thoroughly to His Lordship over our lives and it's getting our will in alignment with His will.
He often has to delay His work in us in order to accomplish something for His purposes that can be achieved only in the delay.
I've learned through the years that God's delays usually fall in these categories...
to prepare us. . . .to test us . . . and to train us. No doubt He's been at work this whole time...with both Harold and I. Harold has had to leave his comfort zone as well. God had to make us "uncomfortable" so that we would find our comfort in Him.
God, by Your Spirit and Your Word, guide me a step at a time on Your path. I know You are not in a hurry and neither should I be. You are building my faith as well as putting together the end result.
¸.✿´´¯`•.¸¸. ི♥ྀ.ƸӜƷ˜”*°•.•.¸ღ¸☆´ Shalom
Thursday, March 19, 2015
March 18~ PRE-OP DAY
Wednesday ~ March 18
March 18 ~ 8:18 am ~
Ok on our way to Nola for Surgery Pre-Op.... Had a tough night .... My lower back hurt so bad all night long .... Didn't sleep much! Guess from having to lay still on my back for 6 hours after the Angiogram.... Still hurting this morning ....But one thing I thought about this morning is...... God has given us the strength to walk through everything we've had to in the last 2 months since finding out about the Cancer. And has more than amply prepared us for the upcoming surgery, that 2 months ago seemed Sooooo overwhelming to us at the thought of making all the doctor visits and do all the paper work in the time we had to do it in....... So here we are in the home stretch and everything was able to be accomplished! And we're actually going to Pre-Op! God never ceases to amaze me! When God tells us He will be our strength.... He means it!!!
Ephesians 3:21- 21
"Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, to Him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen."
3:10 pm ~
Was a very exhausting day! But finally all signed up for surgery... Ready to go ... With clearances from all my doctor's ... So ready to take another step forward!!! With yesterday's Angiogram ... Getting up again for 6:00 am....No sleep last night and having to walk all over from doctor's offices to pre admitting at hospital and more blood work...more paper work... Stick me with a fork... Im done! I'm a gone pecan!!! LOL!
And praise God we got there for 8:45 because I thought that was my appointment time.... But it really wasn't until 1:45....Thank you Merciful Father for using my mess up for my good!!!! We would be still there and coming home in all that New Orleans traffic!!!! Oh and another blessing in the midst of a very overwhelming day... Was the hospital did accept all the test results paper work from yesterday's Heart Cath... ( lung x ray, EKG, lab results... Other wise I would have had to do all that too!!! But Praise God... We're home now.... And this girl is going to the showers and getting in some comfortable Jammie's and taking a couple Tylenol's and its to bed for me ! Thanks again guys ... You have no idea how important your prayers are to me!
7:37 pm ~
Boy what wonders a shower and a nap for a tired and worn out body makes.
Just woke up and feel 100% better :)
8:18 pm ~
I know why now my day was so overwhelming .... While hurrying to leave for 7:00 am .... I took a pic of my Devotional to read and meditate on the car ride over to the doctor appointment.... But because I didn't sleep last night from a sore back.... I promptly fell asleep in the car when the ride stared... Neglectful to read the devotional and pray I wasn't fully prepared for the day...But it sure was ready for me!!! ......
The Lord just reminded me of this word of advice....
When we think we don't have time to pray .... That's exactly the time we should stop everything and pray!!!
Lesson Learned Father God! (AGAIN!!)
Thinking on this word this morning would have put things in a different perspective for me ! .... Live and Learn .... It's a never ending process!!!
8:39 pm ~
Today zapped me physically. . . But I'm back in the right place...my heart is light and I'm feeling expectant again about what God is doing in my life!!!. . .Thank You Lord heart emoticon I must remember ...getting worn down and not refueling (even for one day) leaves us an open target for a spiritual attack.
March 18 ~ 8:18 am ~
Ok on our way to Nola for Surgery Pre-Op.... Had a tough night .... My lower back hurt so bad all night long .... Didn't sleep much! Guess from having to lay still on my back for 6 hours after the Angiogram.... Still hurting this morning ....But one thing I thought about this morning is...... God has given us the strength to walk through everything we've had to in the last 2 months since finding out about the Cancer. And has more than amply prepared us for the upcoming surgery, that 2 months ago seemed Sooooo overwhelming to us at the thought of making all the doctor visits and do all the paper work in the time we had to do it in....... So here we are in the home stretch and everything was able to be accomplished! And we're actually going to Pre-Op! God never ceases to amaze me! When God tells us He will be our strength.... He means it!!!
Ephesians 3:21- 21
"Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, to Him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen."
3:10 pm ~
Was a very exhausting day! But finally all signed up for surgery... Ready to go ... With clearances from all my doctor's ... So ready to take another step forward!!! With yesterday's Angiogram ... Getting up again for 6:00 am....No sleep last night and having to walk all over from doctor's offices to pre admitting at hospital and more blood work...more paper work... Stick me with a fork... Im done! I'm a gone pecan!!! LOL!
And praise God we got there for 8:45 because I thought that was my appointment time.... But it really wasn't until 1:45....Thank you Merciful Father for using my mess up for my good!!!! We would be still there and coming home in all that New Orleans traffic!!!! Oh and another blessing in the midst of a very overwhelming day... Was the hospital did accept all the test results paper work from yesterday's Heart Cath... ( lung x ray, EKG, lab results... Other wise I would have had to do all that too!!! But Praise God... We're home now.... And this girl is going to the showers and getting in some comfortable Jammie's and taking a couple Tylenol's and its to bed for me ! Thanks again guys ... You have no idea how important your prayers are to me!
7:37 pm ~
Boy what wonders a shower and a nap for a tired and worn out body makes.
Just woke up and feel 100% better :)
8:18 pm ~
I know why now my day was so overwhelming .... While hurrying to leave for 7:00 am .... I took a pic of my Devotional to read and meditate on the car ride over to the doctor appointment.... But because I didn't sleep last night from a sore back.... I promptly fell asleep in the car when the ride stared... Neglectful to read the devotional and pray I wasn't fully prepared for the day...But it sure was ready for me!!! ......
The Lord just reminded me of this word of advice....
When we think we don't have time to pray .... That's exactly the time we should stop everything and pray!!!
Lesson Learned Father God! (AGAIN!!)
Thinking on this word this morning would have put things in a different perspective for me ! .... Live and Learn .... It's a never ending process!!!
8:39 pm ~
Today zapped me physically. . . But I'm back in the right place...my heart is light and I'm feeling expectant again about what God is doing in my life!!!. . .Thank You Lord heart emoticon I must remember ...getting worn down and not refueling (even for one day) leaves us an open target for a spiritual attack.
March 18 ~ TEST WERE SO EASY!
Wednesday ~ March 18
I've been wanting to post this to anyone who knows they need to see a Cardiologist to have a stress test and possibly a Angiogram.... Please go and don't be afraid. I couldn't believe how easy these two procedures where to go through.... of course there is always a fearfulness of the unknown when we chart new places... but I'm here to tell you.... There is nothing to fear!!!...
The Nuclear IV Test is a 100% easier to do than walking a treadmill and only about 45 seconds of the beginning of the stress test is uncomfortable..... after that...you feel nothing!!!! And the Angiogram.... I felt absolutely nothing!!!! And I was awake for it....sorta LaLa with what ever drug they put in my IV.... but I was talking with them.... and the next thing I new it was over!!! Felt nothing!!!!! The worst part about the whole Angiogram was the last hour of the 6 hours I had to lay flat on my back and not move. My lower back was so sore.....
But be encouraged if you are facing either of these test.....there is truly nothing to fear!!!
I've been wanting to post this to anyone who knows they need to see a Cardiologist to have a stress test and possibly a Angiogram.... Please go and don't be afraid. I couldn't believe how easy these two procedures where to go through.... of course there is always a fearfulness of the unknown when we chart new places... but I'm here to tell you.... There is nothing to fear!!!...
The Nuclear IV Test is a 100% easier to do than walking a treadmill and only about 45 seconds of the beginning of the stress test is uncomfortable..... after that...you feel nothing!!!! And the Angiogram.... I felt absolutely nothing!!!! And I was awake for it....sorta LaLa with what ever drug they put in my IV.... but I was talking with them.... and the next thing I new it was over!!! Felt nothing!!!!! The worst part about the whole Angiogram was the last hour of the 6 hours I had to lay flat on my back and not move. My lower back was so sore.....
But be encouraged if you are facing either of these test.....there is truly nothing to fear!!!
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