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Tuesday, March 10, 2015

March 10 ~ CLOSED DOORS

Tuesday ~ March 10



The same God that OPENS DOORS will closed doors at times as well. 

 That Biopsy Report was not exactly what I wanted to hear.....and it’s easy to allow discouragement to make us wonder what God is doing. But if we could just understand that by closing one door God is often opening another for better things.... and sometimes it doesn't always look better...or feel better . . . and in our infinite minds doesn't even resemble "better" ...... But if by faith if we accept His plans we'll learn He knows what is best...all the time!

Closed doors usually symbolize something God is protecting us from...or forcing us to see. God sometimes closes doors because it’s time to move forward. He knows we won’t move unless circumstances force us to.
 
God sees the bigger picture for our lives ... and He knows where every  road is leading and where the dead ends are.
 
We must trust Him for both the OPEN DOORS and where they will be bring us.... as well as the Closed Doors that are preventing us from entering in.
 

What I do know for certain is God does the most loving thing concerning us....ALL the the time <3 . . . . Even when I don’t understand it!


When I ask God to direct my path, I have to accept the closed doors as His will too.



Monday, March 9, 2015

March 10 ~ RECEIVE IT IN JESUS NAME


May the Lord bless you and may the Lord keep you.

May the Lord make his face to shine upon you and be gracious unto you, giving you his peace.

God is saying today to His church...Fear not. Do not be dismayed. I am your God. In all of your ways, acknowledge me and I will direct your paths.

I will make a way where there seems to be no way.

I will open doors that are now closed.

I will give you answers to problems that you don't even yet know you have.

I am already in the future working out things for your betterment.

I am your Father, and I love you with an everlasting love.

Receive this blessing in Jesus' mighty name! AMEN and AMEN

March 9 ~ FEELING THE LOVE

Monday ~ March 9


NEVER doubt the power of one woman reaching into the life of another woman with a 

whisper of love.



Dear Lord, I’m so thankful for the relationships You’ve placed in my life. heart emoticon




Thank You for my loving Sister's in the Lord heart emoticon They mean so much to me :)




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March 9 ~ TWO DOWN ~~~ ONE TO GO!

Monday ~ March 9 


Today was my appointment with a new Cardiologist .......Dr Morales in Slidell,  to get clearance for surgery.

Love this Cardiologist and his nurse practitioner, Carol.
They run a very efficient office. Quiet and Pleasant to be in...Much like Dr Cheng's office felt.  Yep I’m in the right place! ... Great office feel from everyone ... Office waiting room big and clean!!! Nothing like the congestion of people when trying to see doctors at West Jefferson!

Very pleasant visit! Everything went like clock work and very smooth ! God is so good to me for providing the best doctors and that I'm very comfortable with!  Only one more doctor visit with Dr Cheng on next Wednesday on the 18th and then to Pre-OP at Hospital ....then  I'll be ready for the surgery the following Tuesday.

Now to stop off at iHop for a Breakfast treat! 

And Praise God we even got back home and was driving under the carport as the rain started !  I'm not a big fan of early morning appointments.....But today it really all worked out in our favor!!!



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OK....  we've hit a minor snag. . . . just got a call back from the Cardiologist Office ....seems because I haven't had a Stress Test since 2012...they've scheduled me for one along with an Electrocardiogram for this Wednesday morning, March 11th at 8:45 am. . . . Not loving the idea..... But I do have to agree that it's probably a good idea to have it done before cancer surgery.

Please don't take me off your prayer list!!!


Sunday, March 8, 2015

March 8 ~ TRUSTING MEANS WAITING

MARCH 8 ~ Sunday

Tomorrow morning at 9:00 am is my second Clearance Check Up for surgery. It is with a new Cardiologist (Dr Morales) ....Praying that I know right away that he is the one I'm suppose to be with. In light of the recent Afib episode...I'm praying this doesn't complicate things. The ER Doctor said the Cardiologist might want to do an Ablation on my heart before the surgery. I was not wanting to hear that. frown emoticon But of course what ever is necessary! Pray all goes well.

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Hebrews 10:36 ~ "You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised."

No matter what battle I may face, God walks with me.

What appears to be a loss to me may, in the eyes of God, be a necessary step towards ultimate victory. I tread on in  faith, Lord, as You guide my steps and, when it appears that I might be losing, the losses I face may only be part of the process that I must go through to attain the ultimate victory You have me destined for. I trust your wisdom.  . . .even when I don't understand your ways.

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God reminding me again today that His plans unfold in perfect sequence. Nothing is ever out of order in God's will.

I choose to trust the Lord with all my heart, and lean on Him instead of my own understanding, and wait for Him to direct my path as pointed out to me in Proverbs 3:5-6.

Waiting on God is active, not passive.

I know trusting God involves prayer, accepting counsel from others, study, patience, and faith. I so wish I could focus only on that!

 If  we could just get pass all the incidental of life that are having to take care of ...I could focus on the more important things that would help me to rest in God.

But...we live in a world that requires our attention to certain details.... Like paying the monthly bills and getting the taxes in by April 15th, And all the scheduled check-up and  paper work from each of my doctors, with all the car trips to get to each one. That's the things that are causing to drain me of strength the most.

So looking for the bright side in all this...At least it's keeping my mind off the pending surgery. Just don't have anymore room my mind to hold another thought about it! So for that I'm grateful!




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March 7 ~ BE STILL MY HEART

BE STILL MY HEART

March 7 ~ Saturday

Awaken this morning out of a sound sleep, at 4:00 am, by that all to familiar sensation of my heart beating out of my chest...I was experiencing an Afib episode :/ . Usually brought on by stress, it was no huge surprise to me...but no matter how many times I experience one of these episodes my mind and body go into flight mode and I find myself automatically following the same course of action to get myself out of the front door and to the hospital as soon as I can. It is a very scary thing to feel...But with no time to be scared Harold and I just kept going through the routine we had been through so many times before, to get me to the ER as soon as we could.

By 4:30 I was being attended to in the Hospital ER ....One good thing about having my Afibs come on in the early am hours, there is usually not a lot of activity going on in the ER...and I get full attention from the staff on hand.  We learned that acting fast and not waiting, with hopes of it fixing it's self, is worth getting to the ER sooner rather than later.

They just pull me up in their data base and know exactly what to do from my past  visit's there, and start going to work very quickly .... The medicine, Cardizem  converted me immediately but I kept having Atrial flutters :( like feeling ur heart wobble inside ur chest) I hate that feeling worse than the speeding heart rate I think ... But the fast heart rate is actually the most dangerous part of it ... So it's great they can always deal with that part fast! After having a 180 heart rate for almost an hour it zaps you like you had been running on a treadmill. Imagine what you would feel like...... really tired!

It drains me and I always come back home and sleep most of the day! I know God will use this for good, as He uses all things.

The ER doctor said my cardiologist doctor I'm seeing on Monday for Surgery clearance may want to do an ablation on my heart before the surgery... Ugh... Not loving that idea... It is only a one day, out patient procedure..... but REALLY??? Not wanting another thing to think about!!! Hoping that is not in God's plans for me!... But if it is ....than I'm sure it will be a better thing that I have it done.

The pressures on me are mounting and I am weakening under the load... But STILL God's grace remains sufficient for me....I get down and He causes something to pick me up... And His keeping over me is astounding!!! Don't know how long or hard this season in my life will get... But I do know that my God has never failed to comfort me through the winter's of my life!


4:00 pm Saturday Afternoon ~

It's a great afternoon with lots of sun and warmer temps!!!!! And sitting out on the swing this afternoon watching the geese leisurely swim laps around the pond has some how had a calming affect on me.  Thank You Lord for always being present in the day of trouble <3

Psalms 46:1 ~ "God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in times of trouble."

A dear friend sent me this verse today . . .It was perfect timing! (Thank you Bren :)
Lamentation  3: 57 ~ "God came when I called, and he said "Do not fear"


9:00 pm  Saturday Night ~

Feeling much better than when the day started at 4:00 am this morning...I slept most of the day after getting home from the Hospital...which is common after having an AFIB episode,

I think this is what being in the "thick of the things" is all about....

God certainly knows what all of this He keeps allowing in my life is about so I have to be still and let Him be God ......... I was thinking today....It seems God is trying to empty me of me?????  hummmmm... on so many levels....empting me of me....the only thing I can conclude is that when  there is nothing left to me. . .  He will fill me with Himself!  So for that reason I cannot complain.

But I must admit... I'm not loving the purging process..... making this clay pot into something beautiful is a painful undertaking! In it's time... it will all make sense!!!!  Glory be to God. :)

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Thank You all for your prayers again !!! Got to the ER by 4:30 am and by 6:00 am I had converted.... That Cardizem really does the trick!!! Helps put me back in normal rhythm almost immediately... After my heart rate got back down to normal I was still having Atrial Flutter but was discharged ...I got home and slept most of the day (which) is common after a AFib episode. Afib is usually triggered by stress. Was not a surprises that the last couple of days I was feeling some symptoms of it coming on. Please pray for Harold... Poor thing....he is really feeling the weight of my medical conditions. It hurts my heart seeing the worry in his face. Pray for strength for him too


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March 6 ~ GOD'S BEST GIFTS SOMETIMES COME IN SMALL PACKAGES :)

GOD'S BEST GIFTS SOMETIMES COME IN SMALL PACKAGES

March 6 ~ Friday

Not feeling great today. My heart was skipping beats last night... the stress of getting everthing ready for this surgery is starting to mount on me.... I covet the prayers of the faithful intercessors.

Lot's of paper work and doctor visit's scheduled to get medical clearance for the Surgery set on the 24th. I know this is all necessary.... just part of the course. But it is definitely an added weight on anyone trying to emotionally prepare for a surgery. Have to keep reminding myself to take one day at a time!

BUT GOD  . . . sent me the gift of joy through Rory and Dawn today. They came by for a visit and they had little JJ with them.... that really lifted my spirits!!!.... Watching JJ get so excited over Rory catching a fish in the pond was priceless and gave me so much joy, I was able to forget, even though for a moment, about all the troubling things happening around me and I was able to feel the power of life in this little human being. I love this little fella he's so precious and so unassuming of how troubling life can be ....watching him, reminds me that no matter how bad things are. . . . God is still good :) !

One day that little fella will maybe read this and learn of how God used him this day to brighten his Mee Mee's heart <3

Heavenly Father, thank You that Your Word says You know my name and consider me precious. Thank You for speaking that to my soul right now.  I love You, Lord. Guide me in Your ways today and help me to live out Your grace. In Jesus' name, Amen and Amen

Father God, I could never do this without you <3


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